NOKTIDO TOKSEIBANGUNDOH

xse bangun xse bangun xse bangun ! erk . tp rayo ? sekoloh ? pmr ? nok study ? kno bangun jugok. tp kalu buleh mme xse bangun pah suddoh dohh tau x. sakit hati derrr. sakit . sakit do'oh. sehelai sehelai kutt dikupas kepingan hati tu (ayatttttt) . but that's the truth . aku jah kut yg bersungguh-sungguh. Dioooo , uuu , xdok hati lasung. ore nok g wi hati dio ado la . nasib baik la aku ni bijok tibo2 male ni. selesai sudah masalah. ;)

i wish this is a dream . a dream . a dream . yg aku alami dari pukul 1 pg smpai 6 pg tiap2 mlm tu. i wish masa balik daripada naim bruni aku x bukok fb mlm tu , bilo x bukok fb means aku x add and x approve and x wall-to-wall dgn sapo2 , and i wish pagi dkt naim tu aku xg ambik gamba nga sapo2 atau mtok nok ambik gamba dan sewaktu dengannya, i wish aku xkecek lasung dgn ore2 yg duk dpn aku time dlm bilik bahas pg tu. and how i wish i didn't do that particular shit things tht had bring me into a thick head-mili now. huh . 

sekarang menyesal pun apa guna kann . dah benda nak jadi. dah Allah letak cenggitu jalan ceritanya .dah Allah nk hantar budak2 tuu dlm hidup aku . xkn nk complain pulok , follow the flow jah la. tu pun kalu kuat lagi. insyAllah , aku kan kuatt. hiarkh! sumpah. mlm ni mlm raya plg sedih aku penah alami. hehe. dgn hujannya dgn violin nya yg dahhh umphhh menetesss. 

sungguh semangat hilang hilang hilang mce time nk trial dulu, time nk trial tuu pun gilo sekko doh time pagi nk start exam tu. nihh pmr kalu aku wak selok supo trial dulu mme xtau lah gapo nasib aku. bilolah nok bahagio. hahaha. rezeki hoklain dpt doh. nok so jah lagi - kebahagio'an . 

About No !

Sumpah . sekali saya melangkah , saya takkan sesekali berpaling ke belakang , takkan mengundur walau seinci, takkan mengalah lagi , takkan terpengaruh lagi , takkan terjatuh lagi , kerana cita-cita saya adalah setinggi ego saya ;) kalau saya jatuh , maka saya bukan Mili lagi . 

Selamat Pagi Cinta - Violin Instrumental

kenangan dulu dulu :D

Lumrah Hidup

hidup ni macam roda kan ? kadang kita di atas , kadang kita di bawah . bila kita di atas, bukan main lagi orang puji sampai x cukup kata - sampai x cukup bibir nk senyum , sungguh bangga menjadi diri sendiri pada waktu itu , semua orang sanjung , TAPI , bila roda berputarrrr , dan kita di bawah , sungguh , kita lah yang menjadi mangsa atas segala-galanya walaupun salah itu cuma sedikit dan masih boleh diperbaiki tetapi tanggapan org terhadap kita smemangnya negatif2 belaka. itulah yang sedang terjadi kpd aku sekarang . Sesungguhnya hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu bahawa aku sangat sangat bersyukur dan aku x akan mungkin lupa diri lepas dapat smua yg Dia beri. Allah tahu bahawa aku semakin sedar . Allah tahu bahawa aku tidak angkuh dengan kurniaan-Nya kepadaku. Allah tahu segala-galanya yg selama ini manusia sering ragui dripada ku .

Dek kerana mimpi pada malam jumaat semalam lah, maka aku berasa ingin mengarang satu definisi panjang apabila roda berputar. aku x mungkin angkuh dengan rezeki yang aku peroleh kerana bagiku apa-apa shj yg kita dapat itu BERGANTUNG kepada usaha kita. Kalau sikit usaha , maka sikitlah rezeki yang kita dapat. kalau usaha kita luar biasa daripada orang lain, maka rezeki kita pun akan luar biasa juga daripada orang lain.

Hidup ini sungguh indah jika kita dapat selalu berada di atas . tapi roda kan berputar. masa kan berjalan. hari pun berubah. Kepada anda yang mungkin tersedar bahawa anda sedang berada di bawah atau di pertengahan roda, maka bangkitlah kembali dan sedarlah diri sesedar sedarnya utk BERUBAH ! kerana hny dengan berubah , anda dapat naik kembali ke tingkat atas . Kerana yg di atas itu bukan slama-lamanya. <3
p/s : ini adalah hasil karangan saya sendiri yang keluar spontan drpd hati dan akal dan jejari pula menaip ;)

Serious Boring !

fylb ! perghh . sakit hati sungguh la . aishh. but it's ok la , nanti kau susah jgn datang carik aku okeh ? malaun la manusia tuu , hrggh . ok . case shut . NOW . hahaha aku dh bengong dh dgn ym and skype ni , kjp off kjp on. fiiiuu. bosan gila . actually , diaorang balik , baru sampai tadi. andd aku pun tak turun2 lagi ni. rasa macam malas gila nak turun tapi tpaksa la turun lpas ni. kang nampak sgt x hormat tetamu :P . sumpah boring bosan gilee derr. nak study punn mcm xderk mood je kut. :D karang2 laa study tuh hahaha . apahal internet mcm badak sumbu ni? mentantanggg betull - aiaiii panas kawe . hmph . tapi tu la . agak terasa dgn kata2 sorang mak cik yg msk bilik tadi , dia kata 'baik g duk dlm gua' kt aku , hahaaha , punya la kau ni tak berprikemanusiaan , wei cerdik, i need a peace la , kena la duduk sorang2 sunyi2 sepi2 dlm bilik nii . dahtuu kalau dkt area kt rumah ni ada gua lama dh aku pegi , x heran laa kalau setakat xleh tgk muka kau yg suci tuu ptuihhh . puasa je- smayang ntah ke laut mana ! hmph . so sekarang aku nak chiao dulu nk pegik smayang + mngaji , then nk baca novell !! btw. fyaom. ;)

Takdok Kijo Do'oh Doh Wokali ;D

hehe . padeha sejam tadi baru post entri . hemphh God knows everything la apa yg jadi time sembahyang maghrib tadi . hurgh . berat sangat dah kutt beban ni . hehe . biarlah. kalau yang berat itu adalah yang terbaik dan yang telah Allah tentukan , maka ya saya terima . :(( 10min tadi ..

Mili : weh , jom g kbm . 

Kama : wak gapo kbm ?

Mili : nok g mkn mc'd . 

Kama : heh ? 

Kama : gapooo ?

Mili : nok g make . 

Kama : nok g make ? oloh , tadi make doh kei bukok poso , kakghey lah. aku nok g lain ni.

Mili : huh ? kakghey ? :((

haish . ingat aku nok g kbm tuu nok g make ko ? aku ado plan lainnn laa . hish. doh biala . sedih kakloh sero.tapi gak hola , nok suh wak gano lagi ? kakghey kbm tutup dh la mek weii . hishhh.hemph, marilah smaye tarawikh dulu . dohla keno timga umoh sorre - tiak2 male sokmo :((

Bluebird

itu tajuk lagu christina perri okaii . hmph . actually kan kan . what benefit do we get IF we help the one that will make us hurt like - sooner or later kann ? and it's better for me to diam je lah kut. i'm too tired to involve in their problems . afraid that'll make a bigger case and idw tanggunggg . and for the fact is ; idh any motive of making this stupid entri ; and i am wasting my Science time . shittuss. but let it be. hehe , we need some rest jugak kan instead of study smart tuu :D huh . hidup dalam angan-angan tu lagi best kan ? lagi bahagia kutt. tak menyusahkan orang yg kita sayang tp dia x sayang kita tuuu kan kan . (geli aku) . hahaha . biarpun sakit , tapi, itulah, aku x nampak apa-apa dari mimpi2 aku tiap hari kecuali muka dia. huh . betapa lemahnya seorang mili tu .  pah nok suh aku oyk gapo lg? bose tau x .hahaha. sorry sy curi gambar awk ;)

Tok Kisoh Sikik Habuk Pong

hehe , style spio ehh naip lagutuh ? har har har . ehemp . harini hari plg byk duge'ey kutt spanje panje poso ni . (ttibo tubik klate pekat hahaha) . buke apoo , (hahaha) sakit palo.. nasi mke byk doh padeha time sahur xd, x cukuk air kott . + ngaju nga Di , hihi . tekpong ore ajok g KL xsei g, pah time ore xse g gak dio nk g . sakit hati dok ? :D ngaju ngaju ngaju. buke takat nga Di jah , nga diotu dioni dionu bla bla bla la. tahuu la. sero nok dok sorre . malah ado kait gapo2 doh . pmr punngg tingga 47 hari lg . feeeee . lambat lg ko bna nok bukok poso ni? empp.. hahaha . ok lah . nok g ngapa hadis . (xdok mood lasum bna ari ni)
assalamualaikum ;)

Today 'll Only Left 50days !

Ya Allah . woke up when my dad awake me , and suddenly realised that i'd dreamt sth last night . . when i flash it back, Subhanallah ! IT'S YOU AGAIN ! wouldn't it such a shit shit shit shit ? i'd too much give up to you. i fed-up. firstly, why did you came to my dream every night ? they were very irritating me la when i just only can dream, when i just only dream dream and dream like there's no stupid ever thing to do in the whole world ! i can't breath hahhh ! and yes making this entri was the hardest part of my night . :( why did you do this to me ? why you didn't reply my msg when i truly need you like mad ! why you didn't answer my call ? why ? and that was true of what did my sis told me last week . she told that 'what if one day he isn't there for you ? and what wud yr life be ?' , i said to her 'i can still live because i only know him for about 4 months, and that's clearly possible that i can live wthout knowing him for almost 14 yrs 2 months !' . yeah . i'm the best when i'm talking as if i wud be able to do whatever i told . i'm stupid . i'm stupid because i'v wasted my whole time that shud be filled with study and books but waiting for a msg from bloody shit like you. and that's what i've been thinking to, i wanna take leave you. by whatever way, i know i can . that's my hell-bent . don't ever come for me in this 50 days cause i won't accept you, i won't accept you, i won't accept you. i can be the stupidest but everybdy choose to be the cleverest right. and I am taking the best way for my future. He , he only know how to ruin my future ! NEVER THERE WHEN I NEED HIM. NEVER APPRECIATE ME AS I DID . NEVER BE LIKE I WANTED TO . he's soo annoying , most annoying person i'd ever met . dshsh.

the one which filled each centimeter of diameter on heart ;)

The last thing i ever want to do is to hurt those people i truly love. and i'd succeed . one by one . had - hurt - hurt - hurt - down - down - down . when I think I can be the greatest best than you do! I can do the best than what you'd do ! You're such a crap , yes , CRAP ! and you'd hurt your own friend kann ? i thought you lagi jahat daripada sy kutt kann ? oh whatever bloody hell , semoga bahagia sampai neraka !

Sakit hati kann ?

subhanallah. this's what I don't want ! activate fb then see this see that like shit shit shit ! ehh kauu nk buat apa2 punn fikir la dulu. x perlu la kan pegi publish dkt fb mcm bodoh gila gtu ! ehh sedar diri la ! ada otak kan ! pikir la ! dh nama tu lelaki , act like a man la babun ! but there's no more point to be shoot to sbb everything had happened right. no everything is happening ! apo lah aku duk bobe nii. ok first . raso nyesa gilo sbb g hata msg gtu ko manusio tuu pg td. mme first time nk ata tuu mme aku x mikir gosatuu punn, mme xdok prase'ey gosatuu punn. tp lepas bkk fb td pahtu tgk bndo2 tuu , aishh, bru la aku pehe , bru la aku tahu, he had started a new life and he doesn't need me anymore for the whole his life :) maybe girlfriend dia kata ''jgn layan dia (aku) lagi '' orr maybe kawan sebelah katil dia kata ''bo layan ore (aku) supo tu'' orr maybe dia dh tetapkan dlm diri dia ''idw have any relationship with her (aku) by feet or pieces of hair'' , phh .. yola yola. tp serius lah aku byk gila masalah dowh. 

Bliss And Bless

assalamualaikum . ceh dh betaubat aku bulan2 puasa ni. ehem ehem. baru lepas bgayut dgn kak je td. ;) andd yes it such a bless and a bliss to have a sister like her. that she's very very very concern abt me, tny mkn sahur apa mkn buka apa, and the best part is she do gv so much advise psl mili-frust-trial tuu . howhowwrr. yes i'm sooo manja when it comes to be with sisto and brothoo. and the earthly reason is i'm lack of love bebeyh. dhla bukak puasa punn sunyi sepi mcm rumah pontianak punn ada. ishh. bersyukur la dedi adaaa. ;) emm pasal exam. like usual i went to tuition pagi2 weekend, then heard la budak2 sklh menengah ni (bukan yik) dok chat about their impression of trial yg x habis lagi ni. ada ke dia kata SENANG ! ? uishh dhla dgn suara riak tamak haloba kau tuu aii mmg hot lah aku out of sudden. ehh mok cik kalu seney xdok la aku duk guling selok supo ore gilo duk jerix smale . wargh ! bernanah youuu hati I ! but yea , you kn genius . who=else=.

lolipopopi. bila dgr budak2 tuisyen ni ckp pasal nk g parkson bila balik tusyen tuu, aduhhh, trus aku x blh blaja. kacau laa. trus tringat org sebelah. weeheee. igt nk balik nk call org sebelah nk ajk p teman shopping dkt parkson esk, tp bila pikir2 balik, aiiseeh. bulan puasa ni youu. plus lg akuu tu hari ahad ada dua paper lagi ! x padan laa kalau nk p shopping awal2 punn .. ok. dah . aku kannn ego.. tunggu la lepas dua bulan aku call lah korang. hahaha /_()-()_/ bye ohh anyway, iloveyouS . bye ! *my old andd new soul, S !* - ktorang dh baik balik ;)

Thought And Exam

i walked through the hall and sat on my place, aware that I need you so much at that time, and suddenly remembered that you'v yr new girl. And I cancel my call. Yeah. Let me swallow all the biles by myself. I know I shudn't being waiting for yr texts, but i want to. I hurt too much because of you. I've being insane because of you. When I slipped into the pages of the booklet, I remembered you. Only yr name in my head , on everytime I breathe. WHY ? why do i need yr support ? I know I can live on my own. But i know i need youu . andd God, you've other tht love you more than I do . I wish yr happiness. And i'm full of gloom. and the ReasOn is YOU !