i am egoistic teen

ok. i don't know where to start abouttt. emnggg . maybe i wanna say that my heart is break now . breakk anddd breakk andddd BREEEAAAAKKK ! they know it. yes they kn0w exactly what i want for my birthday present, n they know absolutely wat i'v plan all this time . but they donno tht they hv break me heart into pieces n just like that the pieces r now swallowing by the moon . reaching for the stars maybe. and left me all aloneeee in this dark-sad-lonelyy self . :(( . this is surely unjust 4 me as i've planned it by times n when it reaches the timee, n they make their own things by not knowing my truly feels. i didn't put any h0pe anymore unless in the old. i mean i don't want to disturb them anymore. let they being by themselves. i am truly hurt. this is when i think i shud do all by my own n just don't gv any hope to myself or else i'll be like now - i am carrying the burden n frustness without no one beside. there's nobody anymore who willing to gv me back my pieces heart . i .. i just let them see me in smile . let they donno abt my true. i'm having plenty of dishes in my plate , n let me eat in on my own , cause the won't ever eat it for me . :(
assalamualaikum . 

RUDE ?

eher . hyee hyee . this week is soo hectic! it's not me but the prefeccttss exactly . poor them  . we have safe school's carnival for a week . and for the five days we hve our talks aboutt err many scopes actually. n i shall not mention it bcs i'd too much bcome a zombie for the straight 5 days ;

hv to carry this ears n eyes for the talks . bhrrhh . soo sleepy. n tomolow is the end of the carnival n the minister of JPN will be coming . i shall not talk abt him too . bcs this is all about SCHOOL AND SCHOOL I'M BOREEDDDD !

ok blog now chill . ehemp . i get an intention to make RUDE as a topic bcs i'd think, y did everyone 'd to say tht i'm rude. n a bit upset wen ada jgk yg kata '' budak ni x cukup kasih syg'' . shit you . although my mom 'd passed away in my young age but i do not being a jerk mankind like you goofy ! the truth is , i'm the one who always want me to win in every of my talk. bcs all i say ARE true ! i try to straighten the truth and truth . n in tht case would might bring my rudeness at front of my tongue right.

and it was a continuum . i'd try bcome a good and sopan girl , but me , huh , i didn't get enough hidayah lg kut. bhahaha. until i kill my cousin's mouth . she's the blamer in this story , where she f0rce me to hold her son.wth mam ? yerrgh you know me i'm not keen to child so don't force me or else i had to gv out free tut0rial for you , then you called me rude. you CALLING me rude. n so watebo mam . i got much things to settle yet okeyh.

n i also get heart to my cousiyy , aslaha , that's when she shoot my words by saying kind of mcm kita org kat sini x wujud dh kut dlm keluarga dia .  btw , idc , it's not my problem at all . as i said i got many work much more to solve, and if you in trying to burden me , just go to goat. not me . i'm tired. well wat did i do , QUIET . just QUIET . nothing all can i say. n if she is reading or watebo , don't say me RUDE, cause i'm straighten my line ok boo . DAA GERPRENSSS .

okeh . tuntasnya mmg terasa bersalah dari hujung lubuk hati . huarghhh . bukan rasa bslh. rasa... haish . rasa nanti takut dio bose pehe dok ? rrggghh . pls it's so shit n i nvr thought i'll call him at tht time , it's so embrassing me myself ! Ya Allah . i need a rest. 

TAHLIL

ok i admit that i do nothing upon the tahlil going this night , huh btw i'm too much tired n there is i got no time to spend with help the others neat the living room n else . okay this was what i've been doing all this evening , mngg start wth the morning i went to tuition then came back and drop at aru n ate roti canai. then arrive at home n fb-king n then neat goods to go to mrsm pc for debate one o one . then then , went to mrsm pc at 3 pm n faced embrassment situation yoww agh ! but let's take it chill then suddenly met alya and was wondering y she was there at that time . oh , she was inviting her bro wth her family , then i asked for her bro's feet to bring me to the lobby n he said tht there's no lobby at mrsm pc . n i'm puzzling there n take a decision to follow alya n her family like picnic-ing , but then debate one o one was going smoothly but you know me , haha , vibrates all the time babeyhh , i'm nervous when they like challenge me n i'm that type who always wanna sth dfferent than others like tht still haa.  n then got back home at 6 n was very grateful my home already neat n prepared for tahlil this nite so tht i can do nothing haha ! my bad. but then my dad was keep story me abt my siblings when they're in boarding school until now they succeed n watever after he saw the iklim in mrsm pc . ohh ada la tu umpan dia nk suruh aku msk asrama . :(